My blog stopped working this weekend. I have to say it was completely my fault. I was trying to start a class for work, juggle CSU, and my personal life. Needless to say I failed–miserably. At least I didn’t forget to pay the bill for my Internet provider or to my domain provider. Wouldn’t that be the shit, not paying my bill? I can’t say I am perfect though, because I racked up some debt blowing off steam this weekend.
I had one of those weeks that just wouldn’t quit. I keep thinking when it ends I will… Not a good sign since I have been trying to live more in the present.
I tried starting a class for work that would give me more opportunities. It would help at my current company, but I could take the knowledge to other companies as well. It was a two-week class that involved a full textbook and no breaks in site. I knew it was going to be hard and thought I was prepared. I have been taking 8-week condensed courses through CSU for a while now, but it didn’t prepare me for an even faster pace. I had 5 chapters I had to finish, study and somehow find time to work before the next day. That is where I would take a test on the 5 chapters scoring 85% or better, and then I would do it all over again.
I also had Work
I’ve only been at my current place of employment a little over 3 months. I’ve already started training a newbie, moved on to a more advanced unit and worked a whole area of 51 residents with 1 other CNA. I’ve dealt with plenty of deaths and changed my outlook on life. If that was a sign that I should have taken a break then I don’t know what was. I didn’t take a break instead I went straight into starting school.
Then came my Personal Life
I’ve made some new friends, and some old friends since moving to my new state. I miss Colorado in a way, but have been trying to adapt. To me it’s like loving this state and then you run into something you don’t understand and being completely confused about everything. I guess that is how someone describes a relationship. I’ve also run into some of the same problems with my new and old relationships. I’m happy, but then I am completely confused. It didn’t help this past week at all.
I finally realized I couldn’t study, work and skip my personal relationships at this moment. I needed to fix that. Lack of sleep was only making matters worse. I moved my class for work to January when I could take time off work. I moved CSU to start classes at the end of September. I had a day off because of the timing of it all. I reached out to everyone and anyone I knew. I needed some sane time and being by myself was not going to cut it. I had no one reach back. It was devastating. What would normally be blown off my back, cut like a dull finger nail clippers-painful and slow.
Then a Friend Changed Everything
A friend of mine dropped everything to come and fly out to me. I was completely ecstatic. Someone to hang out with who understands me, someone to laugh with, be at ease with, to talk to and enjoy life. I laughed until my gut hurt, I talked about whatever came to mind, I overspent money enjoying life.
Sometimes over enjoying life is worth the money. I now have some debt because of this weekend, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m not sure how I will pay it off, but sometimes living life is more important. I won’t look at my budget, because I would rather feel the high that this weekend brought then worry about finances. A big change to what I am used to, but for the moment it suits me quite well. Besides, debt, my budget and money will all be waiting for me when I do take the time to see what damage I have done. Life takes breaks so why couldn’t my budget?
Have you ever blown your whole budget over a weekend of living life? Have you regretted it?- FBS