My money mindset came from growing up poor. I can’t say I was the poorest kid on the block but once my mom and dad split at a very young age, I no longer knew what a regular life looked like. We struggled to have food on the table, a place to live, and forget about anything new or even used (like clothes). It was a hard way to grow up but it has shaped me into who I am today. For that I am grateful, as I would not be who I am without the struggle to show me that progress is worth it.
It’s taken me a long time to realize that struggle is worth the pain and suffering. I could easily do without little things like candy or coffee in order to save money. I could not, however, struggle harder or longer such as with a new crazy job without wanting to give up instantly. I have in the past, given up instantly. It was an easy way to live life, but it didn’t make life any easier.
Enter my new Job
This job has opened my eyes up to so many new ways of thinking. I can use my customer service skills, my reasoning skills, my interpersonal skills, my investigative skills, etc. This has allowed me to grow as an individual and given me therapy beyond any vision I ever had in the past. It has also allowed me to accept every part of me, even the parts I thought I already accepted.
I accept my past, my present and my future. I am who I make myself out to be and I will only grow and continue to be amazed at myself. I may have come from a past without money, but it the current I have enough to be happy, fed, and relaxed. I can enjoy life and I will do just that.
I started out in a situation where I didn’t know if I would have food or shelter and it continued through my life. I struggled to survive while trying to enjoy the things I loved. I tried to enjoy working on computers and my home and playing music, all the while in the back of my head I never could relax. I could never sit down and just be and enjoy life. I thought I was enjoying life, instead all I ever was doing was surviving.
Everything Changed the day I took my new Job
I no longer have to worry about every day. I can’t say I’m not broke at the moment, because let’s face it house repairs, new AC and washer / dryer wiped out my savings account, but I no longer have to live to survive.
Even in my marriage life was unpredictable. Life was a never ending challenge with more downs than ups. It still has it’s challenges but the lows are followed by highs, which in turn are followed by calm. I never knew that there was time to be calm in life except when I pushed myself to meditate. Now is the time I get to enjoy calm.
Life may not be calm every day and I might not even have the job I have today, but I will enjoy what I have now and enjoy it one day at a time. No more living to survive. Today I start a real life.
What’s your money story? Did it shape the way you handle money today? What are you doing to change that?- FBS